When I was a graduate student at Fancy Pants University, I was a devout groupie of the Young Cutting Edge Famous Profs in the department. Like most of my fellow grad students, I saw the YCEFPs as something to aspire to and a reasonable expectation for my own career path (how wrong I was!). I was also so star-struck by the YCEFPs that I joined my cohort in scorning all the other members of the department — the ancient geezers who seemed completely out of touch, the older Feminists, Marxists, or New Historicists who just didn’t get it, the mommy profs who were never around, the profs who just refused to play the fame game … I didn’t see the value or relevance of any of these other forms of professordom.
There was a prof in my field who was one of those that I disrespected. I took a course with her and her approach just seemed so tame and old-fashioned to me — that is to say, it wasn’t laden with theory. She was a very ordinary person, personality-wise, unlike the sexy, dramatic, intimidating identities of the YCEFPs. I was a lazy student in her class, blew off her advice, and didn’t ask her to serve on my dissertation committee, despite her expertise.
Needless to say, she’s now become a Very Important Person in my field. She’s taken on a high-profile position at a major institution and has become both well-known and well-respected. Luckily for me, she’s also incredibly forgiving and generous. She’s sought me out at conferences, asked me to take on a key role at the institution, and generally treated me like a valued colleague. Meanwhile, I haven’t spoken to any members of my dissertation committee in years, none of the YCEFPs have ever made any effort to include me in their projects or schemes, or really given a damn about the progress of my career.
Moral of the story: you just never know who’s going to turn out to play a role in your academic life, so you best not misbehave.
I’ve blogged before about a disastrous graduate class I had a few years ago, in which a cabal of disgruntled graduate students terrorized their classmates and treated me with open contempt. It was an incredibly upsetting experience for me and made me doubt myself at a grad teacher. It also made me really, really angry at these students for being so disrespectful and arrogant.
I’ve been invited to give a talk next month at another institution and, guess what? One of the cabal members is now in the PhD program there and will be attending my presentation. He sent me an email about how excited he was that I was coming, how interested he was in my talk, and other ass-kissing platitudes. I’m sure he did a double-take when he discovered that I am considered to be a legitimate scholar by his new profs.
After indulging in a brief but delightful sense of retribution, I have vowed to follow the model of my own prof/colleague and be magnanimous towards the little bastard. Because, you never know …

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September 10, 2008 at 10:17 pm
Flavia
That’s a great story, and I’m indulging in a vicarious sense of vindication — there are more than a few persons I not-so-secretly hope will soon see The Error of Their Ways (vis-a-vis their treatment of me).
But yes: the wheel of fortune seldom makes just one revolution, so — best not to celebrate one’s victory too overtly.
September 11, 2008 at 1:17 am
abbagirl
truly, that’s probably one of the most worthwhile life lessons one could learn.
i just got admitted into a ph.d program for this year but deferred admissions until spring semester so that i can think on things. one of the really minor reasons for my hesitation to start my program this semester is because i know how a grad program can end up feeling like it is a big incestuous pool and a lot of the people in it can feel like they’re totally holier-than-thou. it’s easy to get caught up in the mania of it all.
some of the details of your post are reminding me of that. it was definitely one of the things that i was not very fond of when i was working on my m.a. . . .
:-T
September 11, 2008 at 5:52 am
Notorious Ph.D.
Okay. I’m impressed. I’d be tempted to be vindictive. You’re my hero and inspiration for this week.
September 11, 2008 at 3:46 pm
squadratomagico
I think it’s always a good idea to make nice when you can, unless the person is clearly and irrevocably a jerk or enemy. Sometimes people really do change their opinions; other times, they may not really like you, but can still provide a useful connection (opportunities for publishing or presenting). I always feel that it doesn’t cost much to be gracious, and it may benefit you in the long run.
September 12, 2008 at 2:19 am
Mel
(are you sure we didn’t go to the same graduate program?) Definitely, you never know how things will play out — especially because the academic world (in general, and even more specifically within one’s subfield) is really, really, interconnected. The other thing that I still have to keep reminding myself about is how much graduate students are caught up in their own little dramas — they are trying to impress each other, and faculty play some peripheral role in all that, usually to incite paranoia in the students. (I’ve had a few grad students hide from me in the hallways (unsuccessfully) which seems so weird to me until I remember my own grad program and the lengths to which we would go to be seen by certain faculty and not by others…)
September 12, 2008 at 6:59 pm
bsgirl
Thanks for all the comments! It’s funny how every grad program seems to suffer from all the same in-fighting and drama. I know mine did a complete head-trip on me and it took many years for me to come to a more stable and clear-eyed understanding of myself as an academic (not that I’m entirely outside the mania of the profession, as this blog attests).
Still, abbagirl, if you can survive grad school — and it is a Lord of the Flies survival situation — you may discover many rewards on the other side.
September 16, 2008 at 2:11 pm
adjunct whore
Okay, I just found you and became immediately sucked up into your blog archives. This and your obnoxious grad class post in particular reminded me so much of my own grad experience, a part i’ve never written about or even thought much about in years.
The higher ground with bastard kiss-ass is sure to produce the most shame, insecurity, and confusion and may even cause him to ponder changing his own assumptions and behavior. And you will feel so amazing.
My vote anyway!
September 23, 2008 at 7:43 pm
Delaney Kirk
One of my colleagues in my Ph.D. program became my Dean 20 years later! Academia is a VERY small place. Thanks for reminding us.