I’ve been a bit alarmed by the extraordinarily large amount of blog traffic my previous post has received today. Something about hundreds of anonymous folks traipsing by to gawk at my humiliation has left me a bit queasy. So, I’ve password protected the post and if anyone wants to view it, you’ll have to send me an email to get access.
I don’t know if I’ll continue to do this or not. I’m just feeling a bit vulnerable right now — but I also continue to be really grateful to everyone who left kind words of support.
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September 12, 2009 at 1:14 am
Teri
I’m one of the previously anonymous people who saw your earlier post — I’m another academic, impressed by your writing, inspired by your courage in sharing what we all feel and experience. So thank you for that post. You’ve given me the strength to go out and revise and start all over again.
September 12, 2009 at 2:34 am
annieem
BSGirl. Your posting was heartfelt, and that attracts comments from those who empathize–pretty much everyone on your blogroll (and their readers) and beyond.
Take care.
September 12, 2009 at 2:47 am
Sisyphus
Sending more sympathy! I hope you find something to do this weekend that gets your mind out of these wheelruts of feeling like a failure or doomed, if that makes any sense. The hamster-wheel of obsessive anxiety? That may get it better. Anyway, I hope you go do something with your body that short-circuits the negative thoughts.
BTW, are those gorgeous oranges on your blog from your garden?
September 12, 2009 at 5:12 am
squadratomagico
I think the interest in the post is a testament to something that came up in the comments: we all have experienced rejection, and we all struggle with it. Your articulation of the pain of it was something I think many people can relate to. When you speak for many, many will come to read it.
If you do write more password-protected posts, I likely will ask you for a password. (I’ve enjoyed using that feature on my blog, so if you feel shy about sharing certain things more widely, I’d recommend that as a way of putting your mind at rest.)
September 12, 2009 at 5:20 am
servetus
Just want to offer my sympathies.
September 12, 2009 at 11:26 am
Lucky Jane
I hope you’re not being besieged by gawkers! It seems most folks dropping by had already (or expect to) btdt and want to make sure you’re ok. Please take good care.
September 12, 2009 at 4:33 pm
Notorious Ph.D.
Probably a good idea to password-protect it, because it’s good enough to get linked in multiple places, and until you’re ready to share, you don’t want that.
But maybe a few months from now, you’ll be ready, and write a retrospective post on the same topic? I totally get your queasiness and support your decision, but I also think what you said (or even a later version, in hindsight) might have a lot to offer people.
((hugs))
September 12, 2009 at 7:18 pm
Dame Eleanor Hull
Oh, I’m sorry you got bad news. But I missed the previous post, so I don’t know what it was. Best wishes, anyway.
September 12, 2009 at 8:49 pm
Phdladybug
I didn’t comment yesterday but I would like to let you know that I am really sorry for your bad news.
I know it is easy to give advice when you’re from the outside but with some time you can turn what happened into something good for you.
All the best.
September 13, 2009 at 3:14 am
Ivy Climber
Hi– I’m a regular reader (who doesn’t usually comment) but I missed that post…. I do know that the roller-coaster of academic life tests us all too often. I always like to have a Plan B (usually it involves moving to a new cool city, getting a job at Starbucks, and writing an expose of my department’s sick politics). Anyway, whatever it is, protect your privacy and emerge stronger on the other end.
September 13, 2009 at 12:56 pm
maude lebowski
I missed yesterday’s post, or the previous post, but I’m sorry for whatever the bad news is, and just offer lots of hugs and good wishes.
(((((((((((bsg))))))))))
September 16, 2009 at 1:53 am
What Now?
Sorry to hear that you’ve gotten bad news. I didn’t read the previous post, so can offer only generic good wishes, but I hope that your support system has kicked into place and that you’re surrounded by lots of potential comfort in whatever form it takes.
September 16, 2009 at 2:41 am
muddling along
I’m so sorry to hear that you received bad news. I didn’t see the previous post but based on your other posts and the comments I can imagine what happened. I hope you have friends and colleagues who will be supportive and helpful as you figure out how to proceed. In the meantime, please know that your blog is great– you are clearly a talented thinker and writer whose blog-work resonates with readers. Best wishes.